..you’re driving me closer to you..healing this broken mess inside..everyday is a new day..every second is a moment to cherish..Lighting every darkest part of my life..what kind of candle are you??..you shine so bright amongst them.. illuminating the path i’m walking on..igniting two shattered hearts..who’s trying hard to accept the differences..pointing out each flawses to make it right..one word is enough to lift up my day..another laugh is too much..You’re just the best guy i ever had..:)
Drift away…
..Last night I was so “not-myself”.I said we should moved-on..we should forget that thing..but I was just so stupid.making my own pains.worsening it.I ended up looking at it again.and there I was teary-eyed and grieving.I just can’t believed why I saw this.I blame myself for my curiosity. I shouldn’t have dig more info’s. I shouldn’t have done it.I hate to know that it was my fault why I was feeling this shit.I just don’t know what to do.I entered this thing not ready for the consequences that might happened.I ran into conclusions that led me to realize that maybe I should stop this craziness..but I can’t and I don’t want to..I slept late.around 5 in the morning and after an hour of sleep..I realized maybe I should take risks..As what Paolo Coelho says..”“You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.””..hai naku!!..what a life!!..
..soo much
..My curiousity led me to this..
..shattered me into pieces..
..I just dont know what to do..
..It’s too much..
..Questions sink all over my head..
..I want an answer..
..I need an answer..
..I feel like dying..
..while digging the truth..
..A drop then started to roll..
..An uncontrollable thing..
..Why of all it’s me??..
..Why am I feeling this??..
..If this is what they call “karma”..
..Then I better die knowing the painful truth..:(
Longing
.i’m prisoned with my emotions..stumbled..and searching for the right answers..should i??or shouldn’t i??———…….i just don’t know how to control this feeling..breathing soOo hard..gosh!!..why am i feeling this??..alam mo ung feeling na gusto mong hawakan pero hndi pwde??..ung sau nga pero ang lau..ung araw araw nag-go-grow ung feelings mo para sa kanya..you may think im crazy but..i just dont know why i ended up trapped in this situation..ang daming what if’s akong naiisip..baka ganito..baka ganun..bakit ganito??..soo unfair naman..magdamag na tawagan seems not enough..everyday I want more..everyday i slowly became dependent on you..at ayokong mangyari un..waah!!!sooo hard!!..he’s soOo far..:(..i can’t even touched his hands..that’s what makes me teary-eyed..kasi hanggang view lang ako..:(..it’s soOo hard..(T.T)..too much to take..
Addiction
Holding it.. A notion sink in.. My fortress became undefended.. It’s so weak.. This is what I call “addiction”.. How come I never noticed it? I shouldn’t have touched this. As this thing touches my lips, An undefinable feeling began to raise.. It’s tempting me.. My mind says, “I want more”.. How can I stop this?? Argh!!..I wanna stop this craziness.. Now, it’s controlling me.. One try isn’t enough.. Two sticks isn’t enough too.. it just grows the yearning within..
Zee-er
..two strangers from a totally different world..meet at the middle of nowhere..imagine that..I could still remember the 2nd conversation we had..he was lost and i was bored..ahhaha..He asked for advices from me..the “coping up ang moving on thing”..I gave him tips based on my own experiences..:)..walang tulogan sa mga panahong ito..hahahha…destined??magsure ka nga..:)..that “ordinary” conversation ended up to an extraordinary one..what do i mean by that extraordinary thing??..amm..that kind of unusual thing that I would never ever think to happen..hahaha..he’s my Zee!!..ang taong tinatawag ni oyen na “mumba”..d kac marunong magbisaya..ahahah..soOoo funny..i loved it when I hear his laugh..wala lng…unusual kac tumawa ang isang unggoy..ejjeje..The funny thing here is he calls me “pusa”..what the heck!..sa lahat lahat ba naman ng pwede itawag sa akin ay un pa??ajajajja..lang’ya talaga..Pusa daw kasi ang dali dali kong matulog..ahahaha..hai naku..I love him..:)..weeee..Love’t when he calls me pusa..it makes me sooOoo weak..ahahahah..nakaka-adik kac xa..inshort droga..hahahaha..
